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CHANEL

My baby has high taste.... she saw the bag and she reached for it and i freaked out! NOooooooooooo! that bag is not mine and i dun want her to mess with it! moreover i was so afraid she will do her favourite "THROW everything out" move..... but my aunt O allowed her to play with the bag, so baby R showed off her skill in carrying bags! everyone was surprised that baby r knew how to carry bags! she start so young.... mummy never even had the chance to hold a chanel bag yet! baby r had it for almost 15minutes, walking about with the bag!

swim, swimming, swam, swum!

before and after swim

love baby R's expression

breezy afternoon - Stayover 1st day

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-baby R's hair dancing with the breeze-

June 26th Saturday. i packed a huge hand luggage bag of baby R and my stuff for stayover at my uncle's place. he is off in Shanghai, meeting GX, so my mum was to go over to accompany my little twin cousins! my weekend stay with mum thus moved to "laguna" resort! its definitely a resort to me as i face the sea thou it would have been perfect if the noise from the busy road is taken away... still it was a getaway for baby R and me! here, there is something baby r loves.... the swimming pool! the twins were out with their maternal side so when we arrive, baby r was alone sitting on the cooling floor, enjoying her breeze, looking around the house, orientating herself, prob thinking she has been to the house before..... looking at the wall of pics of her 2 little yiyis.... while i took the chance to snap pics of her on her knees!

when M came up to get the swimming stuff for the twins, i changed baby r and we joined them at the pool! baby R was really excited when she saw her swimming gear! after the swim, we went to parkway with mum.  bro and cam drove us there. bro gave the very hungry sis = me a treat at a chinese cafe which i dun know the name, some dishes were good some average but it filled the very hungry ME! way cool to be treated by my bro! baby R didnt have prob sleeping the 1st nite bcos she had a short afternoon nap in the cab and tired from the swim. Day 2 was a super fantastic long outing day but it was also a 'lost my patience' nite!

disconnected with the world. had GREAT connection with baby R and myself!

639 photos taken in 2 weeks! Had a wonderful yet painful 4 days.... a nice way to countdown to daddy's return from Shanghai! Did many 1st times with baby R! On Sunday 27th, a full outing day! she ate her 1st noodles at crystal jade and we watched toy story 3 - baby r's 1st time in cinema. Sat, Mon and Tues i swam with baby r. We went to the beach for a short walk to buy satay with my little twin cousins. I went to Parkway to shop and i got many nice things for myself, baby and twins! i enjoyed hearty breakfast treat the last 2 days.... thou i was disconnected with the world for 4 days, i had great connection with my baby R and thou tired, i feel recharged! ironic but the little difference in my everyday life did lift my spirits up! thanks to my mil who encouraged me to extend my stay at my little twin cousin's place for 2 more days! it was like staying at a resort, facing the sea for the weekend and getting away for 4 days!

the nite before gx return, thou tired, i was excited, worried about the flight, praying for his safe returns, watching my baby r rest after a tired day, i couldnt contain my excitement i had over the things baby r did with my over the weekend, i posted an entry using my hp.... i HATE small screen! i typed in the lables column and posted.... but when i realised my mistake.... i couldnt cut and paste.... so i wasted my effort, my time-consuming typing was gone.... my money i paid every minute to use my mobile connection was ex and for nothing..... i wanted to slam my hp.... i HATE small screen! no apple iphone for me.... not good enough! so i tried to connect with the world.... but failed....

i loved the fact that i had great time, thou my right ankle injury is getting worse.... its suffering weight gain from baby r and lousy taking care of myself after birth .... i wanted to do everything on my own and i pay the price now.... hurt my right wrist from smashing avocado to make a "cake" that baby r can eat on her chinese bdae. the avocado was not very ripe and hard.... also i had to handle baby r who kept coming to me for attention, i dun know how and when i hurt it and its still alittle painful when i try turn my wrist. painful stressed out shoulders and arms as i was the only one who constantly carried baby r everywhere we go.... thanks to M, who helped me carry her the last 2 days when we were out to let my tired body take a rest and let me enjoy a well-deserved breakfast the last 2 mornings.... its been such a long time since i ate properly esp in the morning and able to take my time is a pleasure treasure.

the photo resizer is still at work as i typed! had a wonderful day. will post how my mil created a little mini party for baby r yesterday! our meetup with daddy at the airport! daddy's surprise gift to baby r and my first-times with baby r! not done with the pre-party preps entry, not uploaded all the outings photos, haven even do an entry on family outing to the zoo with baby r which was in MAY! video not done as i wanted to upload pics taken on chinese bdae too.... so much to do.... worse of all to top it.... i haven got the room revamp fully.... for baby r's many new clothings and the room is in a mess which daddy hates!

planned for family outings.... = more photos and entry = time is limited! = lappy can't take the load = happiness with baby R and GX = tired body = motherhood = beautiful memories = worth it = love life!

friday June 25th = happiness, laziness and closeness

happiness. thursday my good fren dap met up with me, baby and mil at taka crystal jade for dimsum. i wanted to thank my mil for all she has given to baby and me during gx's absence. also i wanted to treat my dear fren who always visit me on her off days. most of all, the dimsum is good and i had craving for the mochi.... something i long wanted to share with my dear fren! she loved it and we ordered some more for teatime. we had waterchestnut kueh, popcorn, tortilla chips with cheesedip, mochi and magmum for teatime. baby r loves ice-cream! today i brought her out on my own in the afternoon. we went junction 8 at bishan. walked around and got my jap yakitori rice for dinner. asked her if she wanted ice-cream... BABY R NODDED HER HEAD! so i carried her to cheers to get ourselves an almond magmum! love sharing with food with her! when she had too much ice-cream, too cold for her tiny lips, she would make a very miserable face!

laziness. so tired recently that i have no energy to load any photos taken since 2 weeks ago... many nice things happen. celebrated ann and nesa bdae at out of the pan and we had a special guest. my long time no see cousin TT. it was great that she asked us out and i invited her to join us in our annual celebration gathering. she was happy to see us. we all went to a new tart place to have tea / dessert. it was great and i loved all the tarts we had.... wished i had loaded the photos... shrink them and upload them... its such a hassle to upload one photo at a time in blogger.... making me so lazy... i decided to post up my entries and catch up on uploading but i feel soooo LAZY! but i took time to check on baby R's past down clothings and i was glad i did that! i found alot of long PJ pants and long sleeves that i need and lucky i didnt buy any! many nice dresses and bottoms! the skirts and pants all very nice! with all the new clothings had received since xmas last year and on her bdae.... baby R has enough to last her thru 2 more years! i think i only need to shop for shoes and maybe white tops when she need new ones!

closeness. jus baby r and i. we watched my dvds together. while i watch, she play and i play with her and she watch when she hears the songs. she has many new dance moves and she knows how to do the "concert wave"! i adore her and can't help looking at her when she dance! she has a very cute face! she is such a joy. yesterday nite, she called me in a sweetest voice. Mama. gave me a hug. that brought a smile to my face! warmed my heart. this morning, she woke up and gave me nice smile that brighten the grey rainy day. she called me Mama again but once and thats it. no matter how i asked her to do it again, she won't. i feel so lucky to have her. thou she was pretty pipi today, got smacked on her little bumbum.... we still made up and she laughed so hard when i tickled her! we played ma-sak ma-sak just now. got her some food items and i took out the ikea children colourful bowls and she filled them with the food items! now she can take very steady 6 steps towards me. she is very adventurous....trying to walk everywhere, trying to climb the coffeetable.... tiring as i have to watching her every move. aunt got us a playpen as a bdae gift, yet to set it up and not sure how well she will adapt to it.

the best thing that happened this week would be she knelt infront of the alter to pray. she turned back to show ah ma and i that she had her palms together.... she was on her knees.... then she moved up and down on her knees. her hands were in a spanish dance position and she bent backwards and she sway forward and clapped and danced. amazed with her. love you little pipi. daddy is coming home next tues! finally we get to have our daily family hug and do the family cheer together!

12mths 1 week old milestones

Baby R has taken many steps but after she turned one year one week old... she has learnt to let go, off support and taken more than 5-6steps, falling into my arms and gave me tight hugs! My little toddler has grown so much, her little thighs are alittle more chubby! being very active i would say she still look lean. very fast in action, always grabbing things very fast and didnt even notice how it happened. she is talking more, complaining alot and making alot of expressions! pretend to cry to show how upset she is esp when i tell her thats all the ice-cream she gets to lick off the cone! danced alot when she hears music. she got new moves! she listened to jazz, pop, dance, korean, chinese, english and all time favourite jap C&A cd to sleep. my newest song that i sing her to sleep is FLY ME TO THE MOON! love my ballroom dancing with her, she totally enjoys it! when i need a rest from dancing around the house, she would hold my hand up to continue turning and breezing thru the room! she is drooling alot again as her upper 2 teeth is protruding from her gums. she combs her hair with her own tiny comb from the burts bee miniture package (thanks to Shanice's full month gift!). she mimics alot of our action and she even had one hand on her waist, not sure why she does that! baby r always indicate what she wants at meals now! when she wants water she would push the spoon away and look away.... when she is done with the water, she would look at the bowl! by now, climbing up and down from sofa, beds is not a problem for her... esp after the terrible bump she had before her actual bdae! she learnt her lesson and no matter how excited she is, she would turn and come down by legs first! she holds her bottle most of the time but when she is tired and sometimes lazy and sometimes to lock me next to her, she would want to be pamapered, getting me to hold the bottle for her! she intiate the family cheer when she sees daddy on the webcam. she totally understand what we say... esp when we are planning to go out... she would skip her naptime to wait for the moment! thats a pain! hate it when she gets grouchy when she miss her naps... but in comparison, she is still a good baby, she doesnt allow the grouchiness to last to long.... she loves birthdays and she knows what to do during birthdays! she loves pushing the knife into cakes! she helped ah gong cut the fathers' day cake last nite! she loves the photobook i did for her, always pointing to it and getting my mil to flip the book for her! she would get so excited looking thru it! she loves the slides i do for her too and she loves to express herself, making so many expressions and getting really excited, talking alot, when i showed it to my aunts and uncles! she shows her xi, nu, ai and le in her own ways and its a joy to see her grow!

when i wake up today...

today i had the best experience when i wake up. waking up to a face, a tiny face that seemed so bright, cheerful smile and the tiny hand reaching out to touch my face. the other side of the story... i was pushed, hit on my head, tummy got head bang before i can open my eyes to see my little miss pipi smiling at me.... but still it was the best thing to wake up to. she was excited to see me awake! i continued to lie down and she came over to hug me tight! love that feeling. then when we got out of bed, she got a slice of bread from ah gong and she peeled with her tiny fingers, tiny bit and fed me. love my little baby R!

Many good things happen on 17th June!

First of all, my mood changed for the better since the gloomy tuesday! Wednesday afternoon, i was out with my cousins and it was a great meetup and ate a very nice mont blanc tart! GOSH loved it! dap came by to catch me and thou we didnt talk much it was good to see her! shared my "lost" feeling with dap and talking to my dear fren dap makes me happier. we didnt chat long, in fact it was just a few msgs! so glad we share the same interest! she could understand how i felt instantly! i fell in love with a very special version of Fly me to the moon and she loved it too! i have to say this is the best version i ever heard. love it! and today i found it! shared with my dear friend and i have to say its the best thing that happen and its just one of them!

my dear baby R amazed me since Monday! she fed my mil bread! my mil would feed her bread every morning and with her little fingers, she peeled off from the slice and fed my mil! sweet! then today she actually took many more steps, usually she conquered 2-3 steps but today she did more and she even made a 360 turn! amazed by her but she hasnt hold me hand to walk long distance since the last 3 times we did it.... she knelt and moved about today, holding onto my necklace in her tiny hands! what else did she do? she is pretty good at playing the keyboard as i was figuring out the new korean songs! new dance move from her and she loves the new korean songs that i am listening to. i am very thrilled by her!

daddy is in Tianjin for meeting and he called to tell us he miss us. i was so tired after the meetup that i slept early even before baby r.... she fought sleep to wait for daddy and i couldnt take her tantrums and mil had her all the time till she was too cranky that i was the only one who can make her sleep.... just when i was about to sleep... i heard the message tone but i was too tired to get my hp as it was charging so far away from me.... thou it was just prob 5 steps from my bed... so we didnt catch daddy before he flew and he won't have connection in Tian jin... he will be back in Shanghai tomolo afternoon, hope to catch him before baby r sleeps.... and before i get too tired! it was good to hear daddy say he miss us.... i know he meant it.

the next good thing to end my day is.... i won a bag organiser! yipee! i was very happy to see that email! i was chosen for my entry on the bag organiser! perfect way to end my good day and i do hope more good things come my way! spent a whole day listening to my new cd and watched many videos... thou i sound alittle crazy, it was pretty fun for me. am really tired now and i want to go to bed.... will upload the photos taken soon.... not gog to re-watch my dvds in korean yet... body too tired to take it! love the music and i love being around my baby R! gx is coming home earlier than planned and that i cannot wait for 29th to come sooner!

missing

i hate feeling LOST. i hate the feeling of missing. my dear is far away in Shanghai and we got less than 20 days to go before we reunite. i am thankful that while he is away, i still had many things, in fact i dun even have time to do whats planned most of the time... to take my time away from missing him, worrying for him. the other thing is that he is in good hands. he gets to eat good food, go to good salon for haircut and travel in audi everyday.... gets to watch soccer for free! on my side i am busy with baby r and thankful for my mil's love and help. i do miss my dear like right now as the sky looks so gloomy....

the other thing that makes me feel kinda lost this morning is.... i finished my korean show.... a show i chased. a show that moved my heart.... yes the lead role is very handsome. feels like a little gal in a 33 body when i watch the show. why do i love LOVE STORIES? i do and it occupied my time, giving me some me time and finishing my last episode at 2am+.... gave me a tired body but i have nothing to rely on for the next 20+ days.... hate that kinda of lost feeling and what a gloomy day. will re-watch the dvd with my dear. feel so tired now after a whole of crying. crazy... well, i cry as i want to.

so is my a great love story? yes to me. finding someone who loves me, willing to accecpt who i am and creating moments in our life together, i have found mine thou i always feel that he loves me more than i love him. i feel that i am the one being always taken care of more than i can offer him..... most of all, he is a very good daddy to our baby. i want to hold hands with GX till old, holding on, supporting each other. but yes, i still want to watch love tv shows and movies as those will always send little reminders to love people around us, to remember the good of the people around us, to give us some entertain and warmth at times like this - on a cold, cold day like this!

my dearest baby R is one years old on 10th June 2010!

first of all i want to let baby r read this in future...  Thanks to Helen with her words of wisdom for my baby R! what she wrote is something important and i hope baby R would grow up to be. from aunty Helen to you Baby R - "very touching post... Happy birthday Rachel.. must be filial to mummy and daddy next time ok."

on the last nite before she turns 1, uncle Ray and Gugu, took some photos with her. Too bad that Uncle Ray had to work and he won't be joining us for baby R's bdae dinner. They gave baby R a very nicely decorated envelope with some $ for me to shop for baby r. they didnt know what to get for her as she has many new toys and clothings. love the little details on the drawins! Daddy had dinner with clients and he was very late when he got home. So we planned a early morning chat if baby R gets up!

On the day she turned one. she woke up very early. 6.50am. she got up 5mins before my alarm was to go off! i quickly on the com and msg daddy that we are on! baby R was excited when she saw daddy on the screen! it has been 2-3 days since she saw papa! she grinned and we sang her a bdae song! she loved it! she smiled so sweetly! daddy was kinda sad looking before we off the screen.... he typed us a message before he log off....

i was not feeling well. timing was kinda weird. i had cramps on her bdae and it was bad. Pils rested and didnt go to work to be with little baby R. she is no longer a baby as i read. 12months and above is called toddler! next rank! but still she will be my baby... my little Ms Pipi! fairly a slow day as both of us woke up, she had milk and we slept till almost 11am! then we prep to go pick up her bdae cake, i chose the design but Ah Gong + Ah Ma gave it to baby R as her 1st birthday present!

did our prayer and she got to eat her favourite snack - BAO! baby R now like to mimic what we do! she has been taking paperbags, our handbags and slinging it over her shoulders. when Ah G + Ah M asked her how old she is and she mimic them when they showed 1 with their index finger! it felt great that she could do that!she even know how to extend her family hugs to Ah G + Ah M! pulling her grandpa's head to hers while holding onto grandma's shoulders! sweet little one and that made me miss daddy alot! while she napped in the afternoon and my mil rested too as she wasnt feeling too good.... i finally sat down to load up the many pics taken and PS by me onto FB.... its crazy and slow process esp tagging.... but i have to do it to thank the people who came to the party!

  

when the clock strike 6pm.... RUSH! mad rush to get the bdae gal  ready for her dinner with all her family members! last minute decision to put up the bdae banner i ordered! with my sil's help when she got home from work, we created a nicer setting for the cake-cutting ceremony! Glad that my mils told us to go ahead to put it up as it was perfect that i have all the characters that she know for her very 1st year all gathered together for her 1st birthday! you will know why as you read on...

so glad i got the banners and it came on time! these were baby R's friends when she was a few months old as she loves looking at the pooh bear and friends mobile every afternoon! that mobile kept her very occupied and it never fails to amaze her! also she has them on the puzzle mat i bought for her! with the colourful backdrop it helped to bring a happier mood and it felt more like a party for her! she liked the wall decor alot!

Both sets of grandparents gave baby R angbaos. So did my sis and my sil. Bro+Cam bot her a dress and with the angbao $ from sil i chanced upon a minnie mouse trolley playset that i had to have! so lucky as it was a new item in the shop! baby R loves it but i told her that she has to wait for Uncle Ray and Gugu to be around before she can open it up! With some of the angbao $ from my side, i got her a keyboard! baby R was really excited about the keyboard when i brought it home a few days before the party! she kept crawling to the box and she tried to open the box!

when i was looking for the tinkebell caketopper, i saw other characters cake topper and i got some of them, those that baby r knows. I was not even sure when i am going to use them.... cos i rather have them on hand then they go out of stock and i have to find them all over again! i started to browse for the figure 1 cake. i tot it would be nice to have a number 1 cake as in this whole life.... the number 1 is now or never! when i saw the design from bengawan solo... the idea i was toying with will prob work with this cake. i wanted all the characters that she like during her 1st year to be on the cake!

 

i had leftover fondant and i wanted to make baby R's name for the cake! the day before nesa came over to give me a hand! thanks to nesa who spent an afternoon with me shopping at tpy central and i managed to get this top as i couldnt find anything and not black from my wardrobe to wear for baby R's birthday! i am glad

i created baby R's name for the cake!

Baby R knows her Sesame Street character well and recently she got to watch alittle of Mickey Playhouse. She loves all the characters and so i decided to make all the characters appear on her 1st bdae cake! she loves the hello kitty blanky so i used another kitty that i got from mcdonalds for her bdae cake! everyday she would drop 2 $1 coin into a pooh bear piggy bank so i got her a pooh bear candles with a number 1 on top of pooh's honey pot and a present! there was one character that i couldnt find.... Baby R's favourite of them all.... STITCH!

daddy HUGE present that took up 5 pieces of wrapper contain.... A HUGE STITCH!

baby R loves her present from daddy!

first i must say many thanks to aunty dapdap! dap tried to help me look for Stitch plastic figurine. she found a set of 6 and that cost about $36? all sort of Stitch in different outfit. but when i sat down to think about it, what daddy should get for baby R, he won't be there at the cakecutting but he should still give her a present.... so i tot of the HUGE stitch that baby R always hug when she and daddy goes to the toy section! told daddy since i can't find a small stitch.... and baby R love Stitch so much as we do.... why not get her the largest of them all as a present for her! daddy agreed but he didnt expect it to be that huge taking up almost the whole width of his mattress!

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baby r loves the birthday song! she know somehow its special. she loves watching people sing the song to her but she gets rather shy when many people sings to her! this little girl knew what to do! she took the cake knife and she held it with me and she pushed the knife into the cut with her own strength! i am glad that i buy things when i see them thou not knowing when i will get to use it ... i love the skinny but tall candle that i got 2 years back! perfect for my baby R's bdae cake!

dinner was at the new Soup Restaurant at tpy central!

their private room is still under construction and we had to take 2 separate tables. while one table tried to pacify and entertain the little one, the other table was discussing the upcoming world cup. baby r was given white rice which she loves having when we are out for dinner and prob the only thing that she can have... and i prep rice crisps for her. i ordered the dishes that i usually have. when we got to know for sure baby r was a girl, after the scan, gx brought me to Soup Restaurant to celebrate .... i missed my dear alot.

thanks to my aunt M for the skirt! the present was perfect for baby r and she looked so dainty in it. Ah ma loves baby R in white and baby pink! baby r now likes to send flying kisses before she waves goodbye. but so far her hands would stay very near her mouth, she would tap on her lips a few times, making a muah muah sound. she made everyone very happy with her goodbyes!

how big is stitch? thou she is so much smaller, she loves to grab stitch! she didnt let me have stitch for a pic! i had to borrow it and quickly return it to her! then it was time for the cake! the 2.5kg cake is so difficult to keep! we had to slice it up into smaller chunks to give away! baby R had little of her own bdae cake, fed by her dearest Ah Gong while Ah Ma carried her!

thou daddy wasnt with us, he was dearly missed by us and i know he would love to be with us on Baby R's special day. Papa said that when he is back, he will give baby R a surprise. He would have a mini celebration with baby R and me. so looking forward to our little family gathering. Glad i got her the HUGE Stitch! think i made baby R's day and whats more its from her dearest wonderful Papa! as for me i gave her a turtle a month ago as her bdae present. she named it muah muah!