what i say comes true! but not exactly how i pictured it!

yup... damn it. what i say came true but it did not turn out exactly how i pictured it. insensitive. told the news in such a manner that i simply felt unimportant. its a statement that i was expected to hear and absorb and my reaction should be calm? i am human and i am not happy with what i heard. am i suppose to keep it down? i can't. i am a very emotional person. i have been busy preparing with the little time i have, doing whats important to me but it may not be to others. but i do what i like and i dun regret. the things i do are time consuming, lack of sleep, hearing something which make me feel sad, made me feel so insecure and i was asked why i reacted the way i reacted. where is this leading to? so sad that i dun have mood to do anymore of my projects for tonite. seems like a pause. i hope its not a full-stop. learning not to expect anything but what happen? i created and  has everything turned one-sided? busy life? look at whats missing. time does not turn back.